It is indeed...Art...I presume

Much to my chagrin, my bloggie's has been in a hiatus of sorts...However, I'm sort of back in business, and will attempt to at least make a lame attempt at keeping up with my writing. The death of my computer back in October left a gaping hole in my ability to communicate creatively in a satisfactory manner. Sad to say, I've progressed beyond the need to carry notebooks and the peripheral accoutrement, and attempting to translate what I've written on paper into bandwidth that works well with my style is poor at best. I keep simple notes and outlines, but the brunt of my creative action has become my blog.

Living so near the lakewalk gives me more than a few chances to let words flow and form into tales on the nightly walks I take. I'll be able to get back to relating them soon enough, now that my outwardly creative obligations have been taken care of.

It's only natural for me to obsess over pretty much every aspect of my creativity. Whether I like it or not, what I have displayed is in the eyes and minds of everyone who comes into the room. I'm trying not to concern myself with what others think about my work. This is primarily for the enjoyment of my friends and 'family.' However, my work is now a part of a public display in a very public place. The event was mine...The evening was mine. So, therein lies the philosophic quagmire in which I sit.

I've spent a little while grappling with the ego aspect of creation for public enjoyment...I'm finding the mere act of art is a dual exercise in both arrogance (for lack of a better term) and humility. Whether it merits critique or acclaim is not up to me at all. I'm not really in it for that type of attention at all. There's where the duality of the whole situation comes in. I don't WANT to fit into that role, but by making this very public creative effort, I'm pushing myself into it.

So, that said...I do have Art. Art for Art's sake, I could say. However stressful, the last few days have been quite enjoyable for me because I had a push of creative focus...Something to plan, something to prepare for, and in the end, it pretty much worked. Another item to cross off of the list of things I'd like to do in my life.

lofty comments?